Plastics cupboard

I was tidying up the containers that Rat_boy had spread around the kitchen and because I'd been sorting toys and books into new containers today I had a few baskets spare so decided I'd try make something of the chaos that is my plastics cupboard!!!

Not the best of pictures hopeless light in my kitchen and no flash on my phone. So hope you can see something.

I need to cull a few I think. My fridge containers I've changed over for something else so the ones in there I don't really use anymore.

That is not all my plastics oh no! There is all the stuff I use in the pantry, what I use in the fridge and of course the multiplying containers for the kids lunches that ate kept elsewhere.

Not 'just' mum

Following on from a comment by a wonderful friend on one of my previous posts, I want to know..

What do you do or what would you like to try to make you feel like you are not 'just' mum???

I know that really there is no such thing as 'just' a mum but sometimes that's how us mums feel and sometimes we just need to break away for a bit. I need to really think as it seems like forever since I've done anything other than work, take care of family and house and the occasional work out!

But I'd love to hear from others.

Not to mention grumpy..

No not the dwarf, me!

Just following on from my last post, I'm constantly grump and cranky. I don't seem to ever be in a good mood and the family are copping it. Everyone and everything irritates me, surely it's nit healthy to be like this.

I did drag my sorry butt outside today to assist with the yard clean up I even got on the hedgers and omg my arms and shoulders are killing me. It helped a liitle with my mood but nit much.

I don't know if I need to go back to my dr for help, I feel like I'm heading back down that path Id like to be able to sort it out in my own though.

No one to blame but myself

I'm so far behind on everything in my life at the moment and I wish I could blame it on someone else, but I can't I only have myself to blame.

I want to say that the kids take up too much of my time, but they don't, I have plenty of time when they are asleep or in care or occupying themselves to get things done.  I could blame it on our work that it's soooooo busy I just can't keep up, well it is true that it's busy but really it's nothing I shouldn't be able to handle.  Or perhaps I can blame it on the fact I don't have anyone to help me around the house or assist with anything, but again that would be a lie.  Concrete_man is actually pretty good when it comes to most things around the house (even if he doesn't do it the way I want) and he tries to help me with making things easier and more managable on the work side of things.

But the honest truth is I'm unmotivated.  Honestly I can hardly get myself out of bed in the morning, even though I know the later I get up the harder the day is going to be and the more the morning rush.  And instead of getting everything ready the night before I sit on my bum and waste time or fall asleep on the couch.

Even now I should and could be working or sorting dinner or cleaning or doing anything but I've found any excuse I can to not do it.

It's like I just couldn't be bothered living my life at the moment. 

It's no wonder I'm struggling with the kids, it's basically like they don't have a mother, sometimes I couldn't even be bothered to do stuff with them. Yes I'll sit in the same room as them and yes I'll get their food and whatever but it's hardly what I would call good parenting at the moment.  I feel like all I do is yell at them, constantly yell at them and I feel like I've pulled away.

How stupid that I know this and I can see this, yet still I do nothing about it.  I need to get myself out of this rutt and try and get myself motivated but I don't know how and it's possible maybe I don't want to...It's like I don't want to try for it, maybe I just want someone to go inside my head, flick the switch and make it all better. Which of course is not going to happen.